“did u even READ the emails I sent u over the last month?” - Tori, smacking me with a gigantic 2×4 at the “big revelation”

Sometimes I think there is freedom in just knowing the answers. That’s what I got from Mike. Finally. I got the answers.

And they made me furious. At myself.

Didn’t anyone spot Michelle being co-dependent? Huh? Didn’t anyone “see the signs”? Shit, it took me a bit.

Smack me!

Isn’t that interesting… Think about it. Mike has had a lot of co-dependent relationships, where he’s been the “feeder”… ooh, bad. Because I’ve always been the “fed.” (Except with Max, where it was obnoxiously complicatedly symbiotic.) Michael saw the warning signs right away, where it took me a bit. His natural reaction was to run.

And I don’t blame him a bit, really.

Well, okay, yeah. I guess I would have preferred it if he’d just said something. That generally makes things easier to see, if someone helps point them out.

(Oops, I guess Tori did, huh?)

I had the weirdest peaceful sensation when Mike finally pointed out just enough that I could see why he was so upset. He didn’t come out and say “you’re a co-dependent freak” - that’s my job. But when it dawned on me, it dawned big.

I was impressed as hell with him. It made being dumped on Valentine’s Day nearly meaningless.

Finally, someone to stubbornly dig his heels in and say, in whatever form he can, “This is inappropriate.”

Thank you God!

I don’t know where things stand right now. Really. For all I know, his heart is gone and that’s just the end of it.

And if that’s the case, I’ll try to understand. It wouldn’t be the first time someone has pointed out I’m “high risk.” But I just wish he were a little more patient. After all, I think I’m worth it.

Fingers crossed,

michelle