I’ve determined that although my heart is in shreds, there are some things I’ve learned through all this.

I should probably hold back my heart from people until they’ve proven themselves to me. As much as I preach to young folks to wait to get engaged, married, serious, etc, I never practice it. I think the situation here is that a few months were required in order for true colors to be shown. That’s usually always the case, but for some reason I trust people waaaaaaay too quickly.

My gut instinct, although usually correct, will not force a person to change. January Mike and February Mike are so different I continue to wonder who it was that I first met … Was it a facade, or is this just him freaking out all over the place?

I am in no position to be someone’s emotional coach. And no one ever asks for that anyway! It’s high time I remember that.

I’m sick to death of my heart hurting. It’s even worse when I see that there’s no hope for this.

I think the “next” time (if there is one) it’s going to take an act of God to get me to believe any of it.

Tired of hurting,

michelle