Not a Love Song

Tuesday, May 27th, 2003

This is dedicated to someone who will never understand it. It’s not dedicated to whom one might think.


And it makes me so incredibly sad.

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For so long my life’s been sewn up tight inside your hold
And it leaves me there without a place to call my own


I know now what shadows can see


It’s half the distance through the open door
Before you cut me down…
Again


So let me introduce you to the end


And I feel the cold wind blowing beneath my wings
It always leads me back to suffering
But I will soar until the wind whips me down
Leaves me beaten on unholy ground again


So tired now of paying my dues
I start out strong but then I always lose
It’s half the distance before you leave me behind
It’s such a waste of time


‘Cause my shackles you won’t be
And my rapture you won’t believe
And deep inside you will bleed for me


So here I slave inside of a broken dream
Forever holding on to splitting seams
So take your piece and leave me alone to die -
I don’t need you to keep my faith alive


I know now what trouble can be
And why it follows me so easily
It’s half the distance through the open door
Before you shut me down…
Again


Let me introduce you to the end


‘Cause my shackles you won’t be
And my rapture you won’t believe
And deep inside you will bleed for me


…Though you know you care…


‘Cause my shackles you won’t be
And my rapture you won’t believe
And deep inside you will bleed for me


And my laughter you won’t hear
The faster I disappear
And time will burn your eyes



-michelle