Generally the dreams I have are pretty focused. If I’m stressing about something during the day, I’ll dream about it at night. That’s pretty normal, I think. But since the beginning of the year, I’ve been having dreams whose plots revolve around a central theme: deciding what I have to leave behind.

The most recent one was last night. I had decided to go on a submarine excursion with the members of the tv show “JAG.” Of course, while in the middle of the ocean, there is trouble with the sub. Everything we brought aboard - all personal items - will be lost. We’ll be lucky to save ourselves.

Last week the dream was more oriented towards time. Hurry, hurry, there’s not much time left. Grab what you can, and get out. Several of the dreams have involved flying to foreign countries. I’d be in the foreign country with all of my personal belongings, and realize at the last minute that I had to leave there to move on to yet another country in less than an hour (or whatever). Mad packing began, but I knew I didn’t have time to finish. And then I’d realize I could only take two suitcases - what would I do with everything else?

I wake up from these dreams in a cold sweat. I’ve dreamt about being in Switzerland, Italy, Sweden. And leaving things behind. It’s horrible to decide.

I’m wondering just what it is my subconscious is so stressed about leaving behind. I have major life changes happening soon… I know this is probably the cause of it all. What what specifically is the trouble?

Sometimes it’s nice being as busy as I am. It means I don’t have the time to pick at things like maybe I should. Isn’t that one of my old defense mechanisms, though? Dammit.

Curious,
michelle