Lately I’ve been hungry for everything. Today, Welsh Rarebit sounded really good. Yesterday morning I combined Cherry 7-Up and orange juice. I’ve run to the grocery store late so I could make a grilled cheese sandwich with tomato slices and a bowl of tomato rice soup. Last week I heated up two slices of olive loaf with mexican shredded cheese on top, sliced it and ate it. I did this three times before I was stuffed.

Right now, I’m just hungry. I can’t figure out what I’m hungry for.

I’ve been kind of bummed lately, because the people at the Diary-X forums have no love for me. It’s stupid to even care about it, but yuck. (It’s mostly the Democrats - read: Bush-haters - in the politics forum, but still.) Oh well. Silly thing to be bummed about.

Yesterday was a little stressful, but fun in the end. S. and I had had a fight Friday night, and then managed to have another one in the mall on Saturday. It was stupid, really. I was stressed about money, and he decided to buy a $6 slice of pizza. (See? I said it was stupid.) For some reason I got mad, and then he got mad that I was mad, and it was just stupid.

But as usual, we talked it out, and I told him I was actually stressed about some other things. Then we went Home Depot and had a great time. Aren’t we dorks?

I think the thing that’s been bothering me the most lately is the trouble we’re having with Justin’s Asperger’s Syndrome. Third grade is not as easy as second was. He hates to read, he hates to practice cursive writing. In order to avoid them, he “escapes” into his head and “plays games.” Since he thinks in pictures, he can get “involved” in an “episode” of Teen Titans or Code Lyoko or Yu-Gi-Oh, and stop paying attention.

The worst part of the whole thing is that he will make noises when he’s “playing.” If the cartoon has fighting (gunfire, etc) he’ll make those kinds of noises. The only thing other kids know is that he’s sitting in the middle of reading time or writing time making noises and distracting them. The teacher is trying everything in her power to keep him engaged, but his behavior is getting worse and worse.

He doesn’t mean to distract anyone else - he just doesn’t want to be in class and so he “leaves.” It’s driving me (and the class) crazy. It’s even driving Justin crazy. He tells me he’s “stupid” for doing it. I explain to him that he’s not stupid at all, but has to work on self-control. When I read books on Asperger’s, I recognize Justin in what they say. And when they talk about this portion of his habits, they say it’s inherent and very, very difficult to change.

Just feels like a lot of weight to carry right now. But at least I just ate some ramen noodles. Not very healthy, but I’m no longer hungry. I’ll think more about all this later.

Stuffed again,
michelle