This week has sucked ass. No, really. It’s been really hard, and I’m happy to see the end of it finally around the corner. Work has sucked, the house is a disaster, and my in-laws have decided to be “unfriendly” again, in the usual blown-out-of-proportion way. It drags me down and makes me forget any of the positives. Typical.

In the midst of the work mess and the “family” mess and an overall feeling of sadness and discontent and drain I sat down tonight to play a game of Tetris (to clear my mind) and listen to Creed (very loudly). I miss Creed. But I digress.

I played and listened and played and listened and suddenly remembered.

I’m having a baby.

That is more important than my work troubles, my troubles with my mother-in-law, my sadness and discontent and drain. Baby was kicking along with Creed (because he has mommy’s musical tastes, ha ha) and I was sitting, enjoying remembering what is important. No one else seems to have any perspective. I needed it.

Well I just heard the news today
It seems my life is going to change
I closed my eyes, begin to pray
Then tears of joy stream down my face

If I had just one wish
Only one demand
I hope he’s not like me
I hope he understands
That he can take this life
And hold it by the hand
And he can greet the world
With arms wide open…

I love you, baby. The world is full of garbage, but not for you. Not now. Not while I still have breath in my body. I can’t wait to meet you. See you soon.

Love,
mom